Then and Now
If you have been following my blog, you will remember from my 1st blog, Julie & Julia...and Niru:
The Challenge: Everything. And every step. This is my Mt. Everest.
Realization: Sometime during the course of my lifetime, but preferably in 2010!
Let me paint a "Then and Now" picture for you.
One year ago:
I was a stay-at-home mom with a BIG dream and absolutely no idea how to get there. I had no relevant connections, no investment capital, no experience in this field and virtually no spare time. I had the primary responsibility of raising my children well (something I consider I will always have irrespective of any delegation), of ensuring a smoothly functioning household (debatable at the best of times!), and of fulfilling my responsibilities to the not-for-profit Boards on which I serve. It was truly daunting to add another ball to all the ones I was already juggling, and that too, one which was just one big, fat question mark.
Today:
My dream is now a well-defined vision, I have a fantastic business partner who shares my drive and passion, an experienced and committed director and production team, a shooting location, market survey results indicating an keen interest in this show, an Investor Package in its final stages of preparation, the active help of new and inspiring friends, and the good wishes and support of so many people I have encountered along the way.
Not bad, eh? Suddenly, the improbable and unlikely is starting to look like it might actually happen!
Put like this, it sometimes even surprises me that I've made it this far. And in moments when I experience doubt or anxiety, and there are plenty of those, believe me, I run through this list to boost my confidence. To be sure, there is still a loooooooong way to go and it is still a steep uphill climb, but I have come a long way and that's saying something.
This blog is the chronicle of my ongoing journey.
So, how did I get from then to now?
Step 1: Serious self-reflection and contemplation
I had to face facts. I was avoiding returning to the legal profession as a government lawyer. Something about drafting legislation and regulations for the rest of my life did not appeal to me. Go figure. So, then, what did appeal to me? What did I enjoy? While changing diapers and singing lots of kiddie songs, staying up nights and preparing nutritious yet fun meals (tall order!), I stole moments here and there to think...to go inwards...to feel. And about a year ago, I was finally able to recognize the things that matter most to me, to identify what most inspires and drives me and to acknowledge my strengths and weaknesses. Based on all this, I began to formulate this fantastical idea of celebrating my South Asian pride by producing and hosting a talk show relevant to my generation of South Asians.
Step 2: Sharing the idea
Tentatively at first, and gradually with increasing passion and excitement, I began to share my idea with a select group of people...my family and close friends. I wanted genuine support but also wanted genuine feedback, so I approached those who would have my best interests at heart, and who would be honest with me. After all, if I had to be saved from myself, the earlier the better.
Luckily for me, the idea struck a definite chord, and this did wonders for me. You see, the first person I had to sell the concept to was myself, and I was sold. But would others see it, believe in it? Once I could see that the idea had value in other's eyes, I began to believe. This was a huge confidence boost, and it solidified my determination to give this my all. After all, what did I have to lose?!
Great, okay, so decision made to go for it. But how?? I had no idea how to approach this, what to do or where to go from there. Which leads me nicely to my next step.
Step 3: Faith and a Conversation with the Universe
[Yikes, its 12:45am and I have to be up at 5:30am to catch a flight! This was the only time I got to work on this blog between caring for 2 sick kids, packing and dealing with a caregiver crisis. So I will stop here for now, but you will find my next blog in the first week of March. See you then!]
Till then, happy blogging.
Comments